Joyce Ann Kocks

MY LIFE HASNT BEEN THE SAME. I LOVED YOU SO MUCH. ITS TOUGH FOR ME SOMETIMES TO GET THROUGH THE DAYS. WELL WE HAD A SPECIAL KIND OF LOVE FOR EACH OTHER. ILL SEE YA COUNT ON IT I STILL NEVER LET A DAY GO BY WITOUT THINKING OF YA AND THE FUN WE HAD. EVERYONE MISSES YOU AND WISHES YOU WERE WITH US. YOUR GRANDKIDS ARE ANGELS, WE MISS YOU SO MUCH.

There are so many memories but Ill start with this one.  I remember when my mom wanted to come into the delivery room when I gave birth to Ally.  I honestly didnt want her in there at first because I knew that she would talk the ears off of all the nurses and Drs because thats how she was.  I was so nervous that I didnt want them to be distracted (silly huh).  Well when she came in and asked if she could stay I couldn't say no.  I said while I was in extreme pain "You can stay but please just sit in the chair and dont talk too much".  She agreed but of course she couldnt help herself.  She of course talked like crazy and told the nurses how this was her first grandchild and how she was so excited.  When Ally was born she was right there holding my hand and she cried.  She was so happy and I was so happy that I had her there even with all her talking.  I will never forget her being there with me in the delivery room when Ally was born.  It was one of the most touching and memoriable experiences I have had.  She was just so genuinely happy for me and just watching my parents hold Ally in there arms and watching my mom cry as she did it was something that will live in my heart forever. 

 

When I gave birth to Zack all I could think about was her not being there and how I wished she was there for it.  I can just ask people to count your blessings and cherish each moment because you dont know if it could be your last. 

Jo,I think about  you  everyday! Yesterday you were on my mind the intire day,Because 6/22/06 me the youngest of all 8 of us kids I turned 50 and knowing that we lost you when you were 50. Not even thinking of my b-day you were all I could think of,We shared so much,Our double wedding that was so beautiful on 9/29/73,Then the following April we both had our 1st angels Shelley,April 12 1974 Then Vicki on April 24 1974,Then we had 1 more each Traci came to us 5 yrs later in April and Richard almost 6 yrs later in March.I know in my heart that you can here me when I talk to you,Freddy and Dad every day and night. I Believe and have to believe that you are at peace and happy even though the selfish part of me would rather me be able to pick up the phone and call you and speak to you, I know in my heart  that you do here me. How much I love you and miss you,There's not enough hours in a day or days in a lifetime to tell you how much you are missed and loved I'm going to get one of our wedding pictures and put on here so everyone can see and remember how beautiful you are, Because I will never forget. And I know that you know how much I think of you. Love Always and Forever your baby 50 yr old sister,Missed and Loved but never forgotten,Teresa